My Christmas gifts

Talking about Christmas,well.. This is the best Christmas i ever had. I don't know how to express my feeling yesterday. Well yeah,for sure I'M HAPPY. :) I met my school's friends yesterday. Alvin,Rachel and Noel. Tak sangka dpt jumpa dia lagi. Ingatkan dah tak dpt jumpa lagi. :') Rindu sgt kat mereka smpai terasa nak peluk ketat2 je. LOL. Cuti katakan. :) Tapi yg sorang lagi tu,bkn dpt jumpa selalu dah.. Sebab? Sebab dia futher study kat Kuching dah. :( Syg lah Beth and Yulia takda kat Miri,kalau tak mmg reunion besar lah semalam kan? :(

The visiting starts when Rachel came to my place. Then we jalan kaki dgn di sinari terik matahari since we have no transportation. Ah! Abg tak kasi sy drive! Benci. Sampai hati dia kan,tgk adik dia jalan kaki. :( *haha..manjanya.. :D* Berpeluh2 jalan kaki ke rumah Alvin,nasib dekat,kalau jauh? Mau patah kaki,dah patah kaki,sapa nak hantar g hospital? Then sapa nak pay for the bill? Eh? Merapu la! :3 Tak minta pun. =/

Ehem2! Sambung cerita kita tadi. Dah smpai rumah Alvin,i called Noel,asked him whether he can come to Alvin's house,he said can.. Oh yeah! Finally can meet him. I met new friends also. Lee Ming,Sureng and Emman. :) That's my Christmas gifts. Tu je la.. Kira gift la sebab aku dpt jumpa Noel,then jumpa some kwn baru. Sapa tak nak kwn kan? Takkan nak musuh? Huhu. Org lain dpt present mahal2 yg dibeli dari shopping mall,tp aku punya gifts lagi mahal. Dpt friendship bah! Hehe. *Senyum nampak gigi* :D

We spent for hour at Alvin's place then pergi visited rumah kwn2 mereka yg lain,aku tak pernah jumpa,tapi ikut je lah. Can adapt myself with them. Ah! Awesome me right? Hoho. :D Then around 5.30pm,we balik rumah la. Aku penat,so aku tido la sekejap,sebab malam nak kuar lagi. Dah janji nak visit rumah kwn2 yg lain. Time malam semalam baru la aku tanya Noel something yg aku dah lama nak tanya,it's about our friendship. Hurm.. We promised that whatever happened,we will stay in this friendship. :') Hey.. Aku tak tau la org lain mcm mana,tapi aku,aku tak rela hilang kwn. Org kata,musuh jgn dicari. :D Naahh.. Kan kan kan?

But then,i'm sad because i don't know when will i meet my friends again. Even rumah dekat,then our hometown pun sama kat Kuching,and our family berkawan (tak la rapat sgt,just kenal2 cam tu je),tapi payah dah nak jumpa. But it's okay la. We have our phones,blh text2 calling2 kan? Facebook pun ada,tegur2 la lam tu. :) Even he takda dah lam class,i still have the others,Yulia,Beth,Rachel and Alvin. Dgn diorg la aku menggila lam class pas ni. :'D Huhu.. Okaylah. Malas nak menaip panjang2 sudah. After new year update lagi kot,sebab 2 hari lagi nak ke Kuching. Cousin kahwin kat kpg. I'm gonna use my new purple-dress that i bought last 2 days. Woohooo! :D Tak sabar.

P/s: Sorry takda gambar nak show. Btw,Merry Christmas everyone! :)

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Bila saudara dari kampung datang ke rumah..

A'ahh.. last week,hari Ahad,saudara aku dari kampung dtg ke rumah. Tapi last night dah balik lah. Haha. Sepanjang 5 hari mereka kat sini,rumah ni terasa riuh je,tak mcm selalu. Huhu. Tp skrg dah sunyi balik. Ah~ :'( Sedih!

Sepanjang mereka kat sini memang hari2 lah kami keluar. Ye lah.. Takkan lah org yg pertama kali dtg sini,kita tak bawa jalan2 tgk bandar kan? Utk memberi penerangan dgn lebih jelas lagi,jom tgk gambar kat bawah! Lagipun aku type entry pjg2 utk cerita kat korg pun mcm la korg nak baca kan? :D Hahaha. Fhm sgt ler..

Lepak2 kat Sugar Bun Bintang Mega Mall with family. Eh? Where am i?
Ahh.. Tu.. Kan belakang sekali. ;)

With the siblings. We have our dinner at Sun City Restaurant.

Our family. :)

Mom with her big brother. :)

Cousin with her watermelon juice. Macam buat iklan ja. Haha.  :D

Credit to cuzzie. :) Me yg pkai baju hitam tu bah,smbil pegang rmbut dgn view ombak kat blkg.
Haha. Mcm dlm tv. :P

Me with 15 y/o cousin at Marina Bay. :)

Ada mcm model tak? :P

Credit to my bro. :)
Mcm best ja bergambar atas jambatan gantung kat Taman Awam. :P

Dgn family aku dr kpg. Ni lah mereka anak beranak. :)

With my aunt and cousin.
At Grand Old Lady (GOL).

Sempat main ngan kucing. Dia jinak! Saya suka. ^^

Gambar skema kami. Haha.

Huuu~ Tu je lah gambar2 yg aku mampu post. Tak leh post byk2.. Hehe. Tapi kan.. Ahh.. Aku sedih half happy sebab aku tak Christmas kat kpg. Beberapa hari after Christmas  barulah aku balik,tu pun sebab nak attend wedding cousin kat kpg. Tp bersyukur la sebab dpt blik drpd tak dpt langsung kan? :)

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Back To December :')

WARNING!! Get ready to waste for almost 10-15 minutes your time to read this. Proceed if you wish to continue,do read this or just close tab to get a life. Thank you for your cooperation. :D
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I'm currently listening to Back To December by Taylor Swift. The song brought me back to my memory. Ha ha ha. K. I'm not really laughing. :( Why? Okay.. As we know,November has arrived. Means that December is just around the corner. Every year,i wait for December to come patiently. Just like right now. *sigh

December brought a lots unforgettable memories to me before. Every time am listening to this song,it will reminded me to someone that ever be at the first place in my heart. I do missed him all this while and still missing him. He's my ex,my 'diamond' that i took for granted just for someone else. Fine,it's my fault anyway. I let him go just like that. He did nothing wrong. The problem is me. No one else. I don't blame other but myself.

I knew this men a long time ago. It's on 11th December 2008. :') I still remembered clearly our first met. Will not forget that! I was in Kuching at that time and that night i followed my cousin to their church to attend the Christmas Dinner Party 2008. We make jokes,laughing and playing games in the party. I had so much fun that night. I noticed that he always looking at me and always wanna be near to me,but i just ignored him and doesn't have any feeling for him. LOL. =.=' Of course lah kan.. We just met bah. And at that time,i already have a boyfriend but we're not in a good condition thou. Dasar playboy! =.=' I broken-hearted that time but still giving him another chance,with hope that he will change but seems like he will never change. Even until now. Erm.. Maybe? I'm not sure. Whatever lah. Not my business also. :)

Back to the story,that night he asked for my number,i reluctantly give it to him but he give me a very good punya reason to have my number. Then i just give it lor with hope can help him that night. Biarlah aku ja yang tau. But,fikir2.. Kinda bodoh juga that alasan yang he bagi. Haha. :D On my way go back home (cousin's house),he called me like so many times yet i rejects/let the phone ringing silently in the car. I just can't answer it because there's other people in the same car with me and my phone was about to mati also bah. Haha.

At the same night,he texted me and i just can reply him with several messages 'cause i'm run of credit. Plus,he's using Digi and i use Celcom (until now). So,you know lah kan what's the problem. Mahal gila bah mau msg from Celcom to Digi. =.=' Then,the next day,he texted me using Celcom number and he told me that's his new number. He bought it just because he want to text me. Aww~ How sweet is him,kan? :'D We texted 24 hours but me,still have no feeling on him even he sudah bagitau his feeling towards me malam sebelumnya. Why me degil tak terima dia? Because that time tgk rupa juga bah. Haha. Bodoh kan aku?? >.<' Huhu. Plus,that time hati sudah keras bah sebab rasa sakit hati dipermainkan boyfriend at that time. Memang benci lelaki la time tu. :D More than 2 weeks he try to get into me but i still tak terima dia. Lastly,he told me that he give up already. Then me pun tetiba rasa kehilangan. And fikir2,he memang betul2 loves me bah. Terus teringat satu pepatah,"LOVE SOMEONE WHO LOVES YOU,RATHER THAN LOVING SOMEONE THAT YOU LOVE,'CAUSE SOMEONE THAT LOVES YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU." Believe me,it's true! :') Buktinya? Sudah pun berlaku kat aku. :'( Lepas aku tau dia dah give up tu,aku terus kata aku terima dia. Haha! Aku jadi takut utk lepaskan dia sebab aku nampak kejujuran dia dan nampak yang dia btl2 cintakan aku. Huhu.

So,we officially in love on 29th December 2008. :) He know that mula2 aku takda feeling kat dia and aku berusaha utk mencintai dia sebagai mana dia mencintai aku. Aku ambil masa yang singkat juga la untuk cinta dia sebab dia pandai sgt ambil hati aku. Aww~ :'p I realzied that he love me so much. He never leave me even banyak kali gaduh,and we gaduh pun because of my stupidity yang tak disengajakan. Mostly la,mmg tak sengaja pun. Huhu. He know me well,understand me so much and dia lah yang dah meruntuhkan ego aku yang dulunya tinggi dari Gunung Everest tu. Huhu. But with him,i learnt to ketepikan ego,bertoleransi sikit and fikirkan juga perasaan org lain. I learnt everything from him. Dia byk bagi aku kata2 semangat dan dorongan dlm study. Dia bantu aku dlm bagi pendapat and even tlg aku fikirkan pendahuluan utk buat esei BM aku and bagi isi2 penting utk buat esei. Haha! Kami punya percintaan jarak jauh oo.. Dia di Kuching,aku di Miri,even masing2 busy dgn pelajaran masing2,tapi the love that we have is never fading away. Bayangkanlah dia yang jauh beribu batu dari aku pun siap blh tlg aku siapkan esei. Dgn bangganya aku hantar esei pertama BM aku awal thn 2009 tu kat cikgu aku. Rasa bangga jugak bila cikgu puji esei aku mantap. Walaoweh! Hahaha. :3 Sedangkan esei tu 100% atas usaha dia,bukan aku pun. Aku just tulis ja.. Hahaha. :D

Pendekkan cerita,kami berjaya melalui tahun pertama hubungan kami. Haha. Rindu tu mmg la ada bila dah berjauhan kan? So both of us can't wait for December to come again 'cause i will go balik kpg for Christmas. Happy la dpt balik and jumpa dia kan? We celebrate Christmas sama2 and my big family pun already kenal him. My grandparents,my nenek saudara,my aunties and uncles,my cousins,and even my mother plus my brother. Hehe. See? Dah berapa jauh tahap hubungan kami. But a few months later,he pergi New Zealand on 12th May 2010 for 2 years. Not further study nor working,tapi dia menjalankan tugas sebagai seorang missionaries. Gereja dia mmg menuntut youth dr church tu utk buat misson. So yeah. Kami berjauhan. Berminggu2 jugak lah aku jatuh sakit lepas dia pergi. Huhu. Lebih kurang 3 minggu la. Agak payah aku nak sembuh sebab demam,flu,batuk2 serang aku sekaligus. Huhu. Setahu aku,tu la tempoh aku sakit yang paling lama. =.='

We can't texting nor calling,dpt email ja. So,susah la bagi aku,sebab aku tak dpt nak dgr suara dia apa lagi tanya khabar dia setiap hari. Huhu. Just perlu tunggu email dr dia ja. Satu email setiap minggu. :') Sebenarnya dia pun tak blh email aku,menurut peraturan yang telah ditetapkan,mereka hanya blg email family dan org yg terdekat dgn family ja. Aku ni sapa la? Bkn family dia pun kan? Last2,dia berutus surat kat aku,and aku reply guna email lah. Haha. Senang kerja aku. :p

So aku dpt bertahan berjauhan selama setahun dari dia,aku tak dapat teruskan untuk tunggu dia setahun lagi. Sepanjang berjauhan,mcm2 ujian dtg pada aku. Aku terpaksa belajar utk meneruskan perjuangkan utk SPM aku dgn sendiri tanpa ada dia yg selalu bagi aku semangat. Hanya satu yg buat aku bersungguh utk capai result yg baik utk SPM yg akan dihadapi,iaitu kata2 dia yg nak tgk aku cemerlang dlm SPM and dia nak aku beat result SPM dia. Haha. Dgn kata2 tu la aku dpt semangat utk bljr. Setiap kali aku rasa malas utk bljr or takda semangat ka apa,mesti aku akan teringat kata2 dia tu yg dah utuh dlm otak aku. Nangis2 jugak la study bila teringatkan dia. Mana tak nya,dulu kan,bila aku rasa takda semangat or ngantok2 and tak dpt nak study,mesti dia akan immediately call aku because he know whenever i hear to his voice,aku akan jadi semangat utk study and sgla rsa ngantok aku hilang. Haha. Mcm tu la aku. Aku mmg dah bergantung sgt kat dia tu. :3 We mmg ada putus beberapa kali according to my foolness tp disebabkan both of us mmg saling memerlukan,putus pun utk tempoh yg pendek ja. Then last2,beberapa bln before dia pergi tu,we gaduh and break,and dia ambil kesempatan tu untuk buatkan aku biasa dgn ketiadaan dia. But it's failed okay? Tak berkesan pun kat aku. So do him actually. :'D Luckily dia nak text and call me like usual.

Okay,that's just a parts of our memories. Dah byk yg kami lalui bersama,susah pyh,sgla sakit hati and happy moment yg kami lalui,buat kami mkin syg satu sama lain. But what happened then? Aku tak dpt bertahan utk satu tahun lagi,utk tunggu dia kembali ke Malaysia. :'( It's my fault. Even time aku terima my boyfie now,80% of my love is still for him. Boyfie tahu pasal dia,pasal hubungan kami 'cause aku dah cerita kat dia dari A-Z. Then boyfie said,bkn kehendak kami masing2 utk berpisah,tp yg sbenarnya masa dan jarak yg memisahkan kami. Then boyfie also said yg dia mmg respect lah dgn cinta kami 2 sebab aku dah cerita kat dia dr mcm mana kami kenal and kenapa aku putuskan dia. Sampai boyfie sendiri terharu bila dgr kisah aku ngan dia tu. =.=' Haha.

And now,mesti hairankan,kenapa aku tiba2 buat entri pasal my precious 'diamond' ni. Sebab aku rindu,bila dah hampir bulan December aku mmg emo habis lah. Apalagi bila setiap kali aku balik kampung. Selalunya tujuan aku balik kampung memang nak jumpa dia selain sambut Christmas ngan family. :D Tapi lepas ni keadaan jadi berbeza la,no more him. :) Tak tau bila dapat jumpa dia lagi kan? Huhu.

So,i think lagu Back To December tadi mmg relate sgt la ngan aku. Huhu. The song is about the girl breaking up with her boy and really regretting it because the guy was really nice and he treated her amazing. But she didn't do the same and he tried so hard to do everything for her but she ended it,because she got scared. And even though she loved him,her fears won. She is saying sorry and wishing she could change her mind. So do i actually. Huhu. I do regretted it for let him go. And i wish i can turn back time,so that i can fix all the mistakes and would ever do the thing that shouldn't be. :( If not,mesti i would never been sakit hati all this while bah. Err.. I didn't mean that what i have now is not what i really want,i do love my boyfie now,'cause dah lalui mcm2 kesusahan utk brsama dia,just like what i've been through with yang lepas. So tak mau lah sia2kan lagi segala usaha tu kan? So,nak menyesal skrg pun tak guna juga bah,kan? Teruskan ja la.. Jgn pndg belakang lagi. Ambil semua tu utk dijadikan pengajaran. :)

P/s:Mula2 couple dgn boyfie,dia pernah tanya,time aku ucap kata cinta kat dia,setiap kata rindu aku and setiap kali aku peluk dia,adakah aku fikirkan ex aku yg bersama aku? Jujur aku katakan,mula2 ada la sesekali aku terfikirkan dia,tapi skrg tidak lagi la. Past is past. Let the past be a sweet memory to remember. :')

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